Despicable Men
David Antrobus Posted on Friday, October 27, 2017 at 8:53PM 
I'm the second best person you never heard of.
Me, your goddamn guts. I'm walking now, dragged strenuous, passing beyond the biting, random glare of your accountants.
That riff you play is like your stomach flipped then dreamed something up you never even knew existed. It's tight and warm, like intimacy, like pimps turned nice. Like you found your old friends gathered outside a barbershop in the tangerine light, toe ended your kickstand, and rode like nothing else mattered on crumbling tarmac, veering into the dunes and driving those piston legs toward the tide, all of y'all hollerin madcap charms, antic conjurations, before embracing the waters under an astonished sky.
***
Conversation with a despicable man.
"So you liked her?"
"Like? Don't know how that's relevant."
"I mean was there anything about her that you responded to, not in a sexual or murderous way, but on a human level, if you will?"
"…"
"What's that look mean?"
"You ask a good question. It's kind of blowing my mind right now, to be honest."
"Can you elaborate?"
"Well, you say 'human level.' And I think I know what you're alluding to, but isn't it also human to want to destroy, to ruin? I can't answer your question until I know where you stand on that."
***
The air has a death tinge out here on the prairie. To the west, above the defining wall of mountains, the sky is umber and coral and rust, and from the stench it seems great fires burn. The old house groans at its buffeting by the charnel winds.
Cassady told me everything west of Canmore is burned. If our prairie grasses catch enough sparks, the blaze will race itself all the way to Manitoba, and south to Wyoming, Utah, Colorado, if it ain't already.
We did this. You. Me. All of us. With our terrible thirst, our dragon breath. Crime ain't the word. Sin ain't the word. Wrongdoing ain't the word. This was unmitigated evil. The only world we know of that has such treasures as the wild headstrong ponies of the plain and the butterfly clouds in their migrant tides and the colours of fall and the sheets of green that dance in the northern skies and we've done killed it. Maybe not full dead, but what rises from these ashes henceforth some pale morn won't be the like of what's passed. I gotta hope it will be better, but will this world's waters ever again swell with the breaching whale? Will its forests echo again with the howls of the pack, the raven's dispatch, the loon's ambushed ghost?
My heart says no. Like a deep bell says no.
Once it might've said otherwise, but my childish hopes ran headlong into the slaughter reek of a dying world.
***
"Shouldn't it go without saying that destruction and ruin are bad?"
"You'd think so, wouldn't you?"
"But…?
"But yeah. The world. Not so simple as we once thought. Powerful men have greater urges than the weak. They must be filled."
"That's monstrous."
"So says one of the weak, I'm afraid."
"If that's the case, why are you the one sitting here in manacles and I'm going home to take my wonderful wife to dinner tonight?"
He grinned the odious amygdala grin of something that scuttled in the skull's own basement and held up the unclasped cuffs. After the first shriek, his expertise was such that the guards were still too late.
***
There was one day that felt different. When everything worked. I reserve that day forever.
Reader Comments (2)
I don't know how you do it, David, but damnit each and every time you write something, there are lines of complete yet simple genius contained within:
"It's tight and warm, like intimacy."
"You ask a good question. It's kind of blowing my mind right now, to be honest."
"So says one of the weak, I'm afraid."
I aspire to craft such bold, clear lines, to pull readers along and then squeeze their minds.
Loved all of these pieces, David.
Jo, you are so damn kind to me! And thank you.