Dry Run
It had to begin somewhere, so let’s say it began with the elastic blare of a horn on a rain-smeared night.
I peered through filthy sheer curtains and saw only the bleary motel sign. The word motel aspired to perfection, stacked vertically in neon blues and reds. The balance of
M
O
T
atop the teetering
E
L
As if everything was priming itself to fall, rightward, like the overreaching goodness of the world.
Aurora slept through the klaxon din. I envied her that, at least. Since we’d murdered her husband and indulged our inner Thelma and Louise, sleep had been an elusive ghost for me for weeks. Karma, no doubt, for my grubby hands-on part in the drama.
The horn came from a single car parked in the motel forecourt. I could see no one inside it, although the lighting was bad—two weak posts at either end of the lot, and the neon from the sign. Occupied or not, the car’s message was clear: time to leave again. When one’s freedom is imperiled, auguries come in bunches, and all signs and omens are there to be read.
I knew Aurora would want to shoot up before we headed out, so I shook her awake, tore her from her sleep funk a little too gleefully. She took a while to swim through the layers, but as soon as her eyes opened and focused somewhere beyond me, I could see the feral need in them again. And I knew she could see the disappointment in mine.
Things hadn’t quite worked out the way we’d hoped. But we still had each other. And the raw, wounded, anonymous night.
She winced and I smiled. She didn’t smile. But heading for the anemic yellow bathroom, she drew on enough decorum to close the door behind her.
***
Hours driving south, keeping to state routes. We were someplace that felt like the South. Arid expanses and weird industry. Huge dry lightning skies. Last night’s rain felt like someone else’s dream.
Though I could still hear the damned horn.
Out of nowhere, Aurora spoke.
“A moment will come when I’ll sit on the toilet and shit out most of my organs.”
“Girl, I thought you were asleep.”
“You wish.”
“Or you do.”
She grabbed at my hand resting on the gearstick, held it like it was a sickly pet, and I could sense her staring at me. I could feel a great distant tremor broadcast through her fragile bones as they clutched my own. Urgent. Electric. I refused to turn my head, watched the next mile and then the next.
At last she released my hand and sighed.
“We know how this movie ends, chica.”
I didn’t say a word.
All day, this endless brooding sky had stayed the shade of bedraggled fleece, putrid like the underside of a dying sheep dragged through watery mud. Less a storm threat than a vast sulk.
Dying too, the day sank into its dark gray shroud, tolerating a thin band of corpse-light to gleam briefly on the horizon. Stark against that sickly greenish strip was the refinery, bristling like a city conceived by an alien amygdala.
“This ain’t no movie,” I said.
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Photo credit: © Monica Baguchinsky Lunn
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