Juniper Moon
David Antrobus Posted on Friday, September 14, 2018 at 10:38PM 
"The beauty of the world which is so soon to perish, has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder." — Virginia Woolf
Please allow me to introduce herself.
She is now. She leaks from her own seams. Hilarity. Goodness.
She is a feral wisp of a child finding herself wakening someplace with pale-peach skies and light-olive foliage and a postcoital volcano smoking beyond a shallow lake, a lone ox lapping at the water’s edge.
Her voice is redolent of mesquite and burned hope. Her sweat is bottled as holy fragrance. Her throat plays all our favourite songs.
So pretty. I could never forget your tiny perfect face. My hands form a cup for your lower jaw. To protect you. To save me.
One of us left the house in the early morning, while dawn tried and failed to grasp the day, and the humbled sun rose shamefaced over the land, as our astounding friend grew into her stride and strode away among the green shoots, amid the moaning of doves, utterly alone, completely amazed.
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They agreed to meet in a pullout off the Coastal Highway, an irony she tried to amuse herself with while she waited on his unpunctual ass. Pullout. Yeah. If he'd pulled out like he said he would, they wouldn't be in this situation. Come to think of it, had his unpunctual ass been as late that evening as it usually was, and still was, she'd have quit on the whole date and, again, the same: none of this would now be happening. She supposed she could play that game all the way back to before she slid from between her mommy's skinny legs: if her dad wasn't an asshole and had never met her mom; if the bust-up between her parents had never happened; if she hadn't been so desperate to meet a boy to help her make her escape from her disintegrating home… but now she was retracing territory she'd already picked over, and these days she tried to stop doing that.
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Mercury screens, lost highways, atomic tests.
Dr. Seuss draws all of this.
And all of this, let’s face it, is loneliness.
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Artwork © Finn Campbell Notman
Reader Comments (3)
I always joke (to myself, truthfully never aloud) that I must steal your phrases and pretend I thought of them. But, I can't because your wording and phrases are so darn Antrobus that anyone reading them would know I was a thief. "So pretty. I could never forget your tiny perfect face. My hands form a cup for your lower jaw. To protect you. To save me." "..while dawn tried and failed to grasp the day, and the humbled sun rose shamefaced over the land..."
Personal and atmospheric. Pointed and poignant. Thanks, David for showing me again how it is done.
Aw, you are always so kind about my words, Jo. Sometimes I think it's a lifetime of reading and absorbing and, like you, both loving and in awe of the endless lyrical possibilities and phrasing used by my favourite authors. At some point, all those tumbling words have to tumble back out.
Also—and I just thought of this—all those formative years reading poetry. And music, too, of course. :)